The Chapters of Life

I haven’t really written in a while and you know what? I miss it. Sure, I’ve written little snippets here and there on my phone. Lyrics that play in my head. Poems I hear from my heart. But to actually write something long form, it’s been a minute. There’s really no reason why that I can think of, maybe just a lifestyle shift that interrupted my creative edge. After all, my life has changed a lot in two years. The changes aren’t good or bad, that's just what they are; changes. However, some arguably are good… I moved to my dream city, Nashville. That has been a goal of mine for years and to say I made it here is just the best feeling. Before the big move, another big moment happened, I got engaged to my best friend and turned thirty all in the same week! Definitely some good, actually great moments. But something changed after that… was it the move? A big life moment opening another chapter of my life. Life seems to be broken up in big moments, before this and after that. Why do we categorize things this way? Is it a shift in our minds? Why can’t we remember things as one continuous sequence? Sometimes I miss old chapters, I want to go back and re-read them over and over again. I want to relive them. I want to feel how the wind brushed against me, I want to hear the sweetest words repeated by someone I love, I want to hold on tight and never let go of a time when I felt most alive. But it’s all in my heart tucked away only for me. Things in life change us, not always permanently but maybe for a while and it’s up to us to decide where we want to be. Do I want to stay where I am? Do I want to be who I was? Or do I want to forge through and push for the girl I’m destined to be. So many directions I can take my story. But that’s what it is, my story. My chapters, my paragraphs, my sentences. The story of my life. I can remember it and tell it the way I want to. While life can be broken, whole, or just broken up into these big moments it’s up to me to tell it. I’m excited for what’s next, life is a page turner. If I’ve learned anything, don’t leave your bookmark on one page. If you need to move forward, turn the page. If you need to look back, that’s okay too. But don’t get stuck. Don’t be afraid. Life is too short. Write your story, because I am.